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My Toddler Gave Me PTSD

So as many of you do know, Dawson has had 2 febrile seizures since Maddox has been born (5.5 months). His first was two days after Maddox was born, 3/28/21. That one was scary because we didn't know what was happening, but nothing compares to the one on 5/29/21. Maddox and I had just busted out of ACH after a 9 day stay. Troyce said Dawson had been whiny all day, but he was off his routine. I get home and we load up to go get dinner. As we are parked waiting on Troyce to bring out our food, I just casually look back at Dawson because he had been quiet. His eyes were rolled back in his head and he was unresponsive. I called Troyce and the next thing I know we are gojng 100mph down Military Road. He said, "cars are not moving." I straight up told him to drive down the turning lane. We got from Taco Bell to Saline Memorial in under a minute. Dawson seizued for almosf 45 minutes before he came out of it. The first temperature that they got to read was 104. They pumped him FUL...

A Little Thing Called PostPartum Anxiety

Many of you do not know what has been going on with me since I've had my sweet babies. I have been very angry and very on edge. Well one day I snapped and knew I had to do something. Post Partum Rage and Anxiety is a major thing that does not get talked about. I'm sure the anxiety stems from my kids being so sick, but the rage? I have never felt this amount of rage and anger, and I've had 2 boys. A month ago I went to my PCP and we started a different medication on top of the anxiety medication I was already taking. That has helped some. Today we decided to up the dosage. What I know will really help is when I start therapy next Tuesday night. I have so many things to work through emotionally and spiritually. To start, we have to normalize talking about the fact that it is okay to NOT be okay after having a baby. If I had felt comfortable talking about it, then I wouldn't have waited so long to do something about it. I would have accepted that fact that I wasn't oka...