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Killing it as a Mother

As I'm writing this, my heart has broken. Today was a rough day as a mother. It started with Dawson screaming, and ended with him screaming. He screamed non-stop for probably two hours. Nothing I did fixed it. I held him. I put him down and "ignored" him. I put him in his crib so he could calm down on his own. We went outside and played. We were going to go on a walk but he refused the stroller. Finally, I put him in the bath and then down for bed. It was 5:30. Way too esrly for him to go to bed. I laid him down and walked outside. I talked to my neighbor for about twenty minutes or so. Long enough for Dawson to fall asleep and for me to cool down. Or so I thought. I walked back inside and he was still screaming. I picked him up and took him back outside. He played with the neighbor and his dogs for a few minutes. Then I took him back in, gave him a snack, and put him back to bed. He cried for a couple minutes. Then he was out. He is still out. Today was one of those days where I question myself as a mother. I know there will always be days like today. But I can't help but feel down. I'm hoping for a better day tomorrow.

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