Well, we have finally made some progress with unemployment. They have processed Troyce’s information and we are awaiting a decision. We have already filed a claim for the week of 3/23. This is all so crazy to me. He went to our PCP for mood swings. Sometimes he wouldn’t remember. He has a family history of bipolar disorder. He has also had seizures in the past. Never did we ever think they could be related. He had an MRI and an EEG, which let me tell you are not cheap if you are uninsured. The neurologist can’t exactly pinpoint seizure activity, but she could see a slow part in his brain with a posit damaged nerve. I won’t go into details as to how that nerve got damaged, and there’s no way to know for sure that was the cause. I have to let that go. Anyway, he was put on a medication that treats both bipolar disorder and seizures. Monday, March 16th, he has a seizure at work. It was a seizure like he has had. He felt sick and passed out. He seizes when he passes out. This was not what the neurologist was treating him for. He was being treated for black out seizures. He could carry on a full conversation with you and not even remember. His job, that he had only been at for 6 weeks, asked for a work release from him doctor. Friday, March 20th, he was terminated. Without even evaluating him, without seeing him, without running test because she would just see him April 6th at his next appointment, she determined he couldn’t perform his job duties. They couldn’t accommodate him. She no longer works at that neurology clinic. Why, we don’t know. But what sense does it make to determine what someone can and can’t do if you don’t see them? If you don’t run any tests? I’m furious. He has not worked since March 16th. Tonight is his first night at a part-time job at Home Depot. He can’t even do what he loves because his neurologist said he can’t. He has a new follow up tomorrow at 1:40 with a new neurologist from the same clinic. It will be done via FaceTime.
My eye is no longer dilated, which means that I can feel everything now. It is uncomfortable if I strain it too hard. On the plus side, my vision has come back some. Never would I ever have though that I would be 23 with a detached retina in both eyes. I also never thought my first year of teaching would end with distance learning. But if I can get through this then I can get through anything.
Dawson is so close to walking. He just has to get enough courage to stand on his own. My baby is not so little anymore. Hopefully this coronavirus will calm down and we can have his first birthday party in May.
My faith has been weary. My spirit has been damaged. But I have to keep pushing forward for my family. We will get through this. We have to stay strong and be positive. You do not praise less in the darker, sterner days (adapted from Winston Churchill.)
I just recently finished "The Book Thief" by Markus Zusak. I had no idea what this novel was going to be about going into it; all I knew was that our 10th grade English class study it. Right off the bat I noticed that our narrator was not your average Joe. The narrator is death. When I realized this I said to myself, "Oh this is going to be good." The novel is all about the Holocaust and it is shown from a German point of view. Leisel Meminger's mother gives her away to a foster German family. On the trip to this new family, Leisel's brother dies. So right from the start death is there. I'm not going to give you a synopsis of it, because I think you should read it for yourself. Just know that a German family hides a Jew in their basement for a while, and death is around every corner. That last line of the novel really got me though..."I am haunted by humans."
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