Being a dispatcher and being a newly wed is not easy, especially having to flip back and forth from days to nights. He comes home from work, I go to work. I come home from work, he goes to work. It makes you wonder if there's more to life. What do you do when you absolutely love the field you're in and what you do, but you aren't sure if it works for your family. How are you supposed to be a caretaker and a homemaker when you aren't home? These are the questions that have travelled across my mind the past couple of weeks. I wonder what else could be out there for me. What do I want to do with my life? I have a degree. I have dreams. Why is this not easy? If I had known then what I know now, I wouldn't have gotten such a useless degree. I would have done something practical, and not what I love.
I just recently finished "The Book Thief" by Markus Zusak. I had no idea what this novel was going to be about going into it; all I knew was that our 10th grade English class study it. Right off the bat I noticed that our narrator was not your average Joe. The narrator is death. When I realized this I said to myself, "Oh this is going to be good." The novel is all about the Holocaust and it is shown from a German point of view. Leisel Meminger's mother gives her away to a foster German family. On the trip to this new family, Leisel's brother dies. So right from the start death is there. I'm not going to give you a synopsis of it, because I think you should read it for yourself. Just know that a German family hides a Jew in their basement for a while, and death is around every corner. That last line of the novel really got me though..."I am haunted by humans."
Don't ever give up on what you love. No doing our career and having a family is not for the faint of heart. The schedule can be difficult along with the added compound of stress but if it's what you love you will find a way. Anything you love is worth fighting for, sometimes not easy... ����
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