Guardian Angel

I need this this morning, so I figure there are a few other people who do as well. Proverbs 13 tells us to listen to our Father and to always be faithful to Him. Don't gossip, just keep your mouth closed. Work for what you have/need. Don't advertise what you have, just maintain your integrity. Righteousness is extremely important. Get rid of your pride and have wisdom. Teach others the way to God. Do as you are told/instructed to do. God's creation needs to be faithful to God's goodness. Be trustworthy and honest. Take the correction/discipline and grow from it. Don't ignore the change that needs to happen. Fulfill your goals. Stay away from the wicked/toxic people (yes I know it's hard). Always have prosperity and save money for your grandkids so they can have a great life. Discipline your children because you love them. Lastly, eat healthy. Proverbs 14 advises for us to build our own foundation and to fear the Lord. Don't let your mouth get the best of yo...

Yesterday was a rough day for me, not going to lie. I'm working on it. Troyce and I are working together as a team. He keeps me focused, and he drives me crazy. I actually got some good sleep last night, for the first time in days. I was sleeping so good he thought I was dead. So bear with me as I try to gain control of my emotions and let God take control of my life. It has been hard. I hate asking for help, but it has to be done. Every time I give something to God, I feel as though a piece of me is missing, but a weight has been lifted. I'm no longer holding on to that baggage. It's so great to feel that way.

I am so tired of being walked over. A key is misplaced and then it is somehow my fault because I move everything. Then it's found where it was left. I got the shower curtain wet because I didn't know it was in the shower, because I can't see without my glasses. All everyone ever do is gripe at me. Uniforms at work because apparently only one person dresses appropriately. I'm sorry my heels, blouses, scarves, expensive makeup, earrings, and jewelry, isn't nice enough for you. I'm sorry that I come to work, try my best, and no one notices. That's fine, because God notices. He knows I work hard and He knows what His plan is for me. He won't let me live like this for long. I trust Him. So from now on, I won't be walked over. I won't be shut down. You can't mess with me.

Troyce and I are upside down on his car. We know this, we know we made a bad investment. We may have potentially found a way to fix it with a new vehicle. The problem is, the one salesman at this dealership that even wants to talk to us, can't do anything with us until tomorrow. The other people at this dealership don't want to deal with anyone who is upside down. Guess they don't want to sell a car. Guess they don't want to make any money. That's fine, we will take our money somewhere else. I've had bad run in's with the Landers Chevrolet here in Benton, and now Landers Auto Sales in Bryant. It will be a shock if I EVER buy anything from a dealership that has "Landers" on the front of it. All they are is stuck up and don't want to help anyone but themselves. They try to force you to buy service agreements, even when you aren't required to purchase one. "Oh, well we aren't selling the car without it." That's fine, buh-bye....

"The Lord said to Satan, 'Very well, then, everything he has is in your hands, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.' Then Satan went out from the presence of the Lord." Job 1:12 This goes to show the imperfection of the world. These people were given a choice and they chose the wrong one. God gave Satan an opportunity to mess with Job. He gives Satan the opportunity to mess with everyone. Job continued to love Jesus Christ. You need to do everything you can to make Satan mad. The devil looks for someone to devour. Stay strong with your faith. Everyone has the same struggle. There are four things we can do to anger the devil. 1: have a Godly house, home, and family. 2: Live up to your potential. 3: Have purity in an age of corruption. 4: Have strong bible preaching and teaching. Take your success and wisdom and give credit to God. Give back what God has asked you to give back. People are walking away from God and the church. Satan is beautiful and presents to u...

This past month or so has been phenomenal, health wise. I have felt so great, minus the fact that I'm just fatigued. I have finally found the right probiotic to mix with my IBS medication. It has done wonders. I have only had discomfort, not any pains. It's been a journey, but I'm finally starting to see the positives coming out of this. I can do more. I feel better. Now I just have to find something to help with my energy. I could sleep all day every day and not get enough sleep. Autoimmune disorders weigh on the body, but I'm working on it.

Everyone has that stuffed animal or blanket that they've had since they were literally born. Mine is a bunny. It's worn out. Body parts have been stitched back together. stuffing has been put back in. It went everywhere with me, and I slept with it every night until I was about fourteen. Last night, Stormie had a baby bunny on the porch that she was playing with, with the intent to kill. With everything going on lately, I broke down. She can have all the mice and moles in the world, but not a precious bunny. So at the age of twenty-one, I slept with my bunny last night. I needed to feel that comfort. I needed to relive those memories. I needed to feel secure. You are never to old to need to feel that comfort.

Have you ever sat in your living room in total darkness at 10:00pm, crying to yourself because you feel out of control. The room is still, quiet, comforting. Even when you're alone you somehow feel blanketed. That was me last night. For no reason at all, I felt like my life was just crumbling. Stupid hormones. I felt the presence of God. He comforted me, calmed me down. Allowed for me to go crawl back into bed. I felt secure. I felt at peace. That my friends, is God's work. He was there with me, holding me close to Him, and I let Him. I let Him take control.

There are just some things dispatchers don't say. Things like "calm" or "quiet." They don't even think those things, because it hits the fan. It's a curse. Dispatch is more than just sending people to calls. We are therapists. We are call takers. Have you ever heard actual terror in someone's voice? You've never heard a distraught mom because her newborn quit breathing in the night. That sticks with you. Has your house ever caught on fire and you don't know if everyone got out okay? Have you ever been so terrified that you're shaking? Dispatch is there to make sure you get the help you need. Working dispatch is having an officer sprint around the block to get an unresponsive child and run them to the rescue team. It's not knowing whether or not that child will be okay. It's never knowing the outcome. It's the initial call. We are the voice on the phone. Without us, no one would get help. Everyone thinks that we are just dispa...

For so long, I have allowed for anger to control and rule my life. I have anger issues. I have control issues. I can flip a mood on the fly. I'm not proud of these things. I want to live a happy and normal life. Studying the word of God has allowed for me to start this journey of being happy. I don't want to sleep all the time. I don't want to be hateful all the time. I don't want to be angry all the time. I want to live life to it's fullest without anything getting in my way. This is my goal in life, and I will achieve it.

There are many dark thoughts that haunt my mind. Will Troyce leave me? Will I fail as a writer? Will I ever be able to make it in life? Am I fat? Why do I hate the way I look? Taking inventory of these thoughts is me putting them to death. I am getting over these thoughts and I am starting fresh. No more self destructive thoughts. I will only allow for positive thoughts to flow through my mind. Nothing will be able to destroy me again. I have to start thinking about heavenly things, not earthly things.

"Do not work for food that spoils, but for food that endures to eternal life, which the Son of Man will give you. On him God the Father has placed his seal of approval." John 6:27 This verse tells us a couple of things. It reminds us of His security. It tells us that these earthly things won't last. We need to take a day of rest from our labors. That is why we have Labor Day...and here I am at work talking about this. We need to tie labor day into our rest from our spiritual bodies. You will always be thirsty and hungry. You work all of your life, put money into a 401K, and then the stock market crashes. Our relationship with God is something that will never change. Without God we are nothing. God gave you breath and brains. Everything we are, have, and hope to be came from God. Jesus Christ came for us, serving, healing, teaching, and loving. You will offend people. That's part of it. God will place the seal of approval on your work. It is important for us to labor,...