Guardian Angel

I'm not going to get discouraged. I'm on a rollercoaster that only goes up. Having faith and taking names. Spreading the word and praising God. Doing life the way God wants me to.

"The Lord is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation." Psalm 118:14 We need to be confident and hopeful. Is God our strength? Our song? Our salvation? There is a difference between being religious and being faithful. You do things religiously. That's your religion. Look at how faithful they were when they wrote their notes in the bible. David was faithful to God. He loved, worshiped, and praised God. You have to be faithful religiously to God. Our nation is not what it once was. Be obedient. Be determined. People need to come for miles to worship like they used to. You have to realize that God is your only strength. Without Him, you wouldn't be here. He is in control. Be faithful, you're a Christian. My religion and faith is my Lord, Jesus Christ.

I'm struggling. I feel absolutely drained. I feel like I'm not believed. These past few weeks have been killing my IBS. The pains and cramps have been unbearable. I've been doubled over in pain. I've cried because of the pain. I've been told that my doctor can't do any more for me than what he's already done. That it's just irritated and will get over it. Basically, I feel like I'm making it up. Maybe it's all in my head. We also have been having problems in our neighborhood. We have basically been harassed by someone, but according to my friends, it's not harassment unless they come to our house. They can yell obscene things at us, but it's not harassment. Cool. In the past 24 hours, I've seen my husband for about 10 minutes all together. I just learned that I'm allergic to both of my fur babies. They can't come into the house and I have to take my medication every day, and consider allergy shots...again. It's been tr...

This last month has been trying for me. I've been trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. I've applied for a couple of standard desk jobs and haven't been successful. It seems to be tearing me down even more, mostly because I'm so tired. I signed up to sell LimeLight by Alcone and I'm super excited to give it a try! I'm also trying to find a part time job to help out even more. The transmission in our Bronco just went out so we have to replace that and also pay the rest of our bills without feeling like we're drowning. It will all work out, I have faith!

Writing a novella is super tough. I can write like crazy and then have writer's block for months. I'll run ideas through my mind over and over again, trying to figure out if they will actually work or how I can make them work. This is the price to pay for doing what you love. Even though it frustrates me to know end, I won't give up on writing...even if I say I give up.

What a joy it is to be young...NOT! Especially not young and married. I love my honey, but goodness are we broke. It is so stressful managing bills. We can never seem to get our heads above water, but we have faith. We pray for each other. I manage the finances, and he listens to me when I say "Don't use your debit card." I always know how much money we have, even before we have it. I manage both of our check books, but hopefully we will only have one account. It comes down to: Do we want to go to the grocery store, or do we want to buy this car part? Granted, we are budgeting our money now so that we can not have any car payments, but OMG. It seems like you get charged money to just breathe. We know God had a plan for us. We know He will take care of us. We just have to be patient.

It is extremely difficult working nights and being a newly wed. Troyce comes home from work, I go to work. We might get to see each other for two minutes. I come home from work, he's in the shower about to leave for work. He gives me a quick kiss and tucks me into bed. I miss out on activities with friends. I miss out on cooking dinner for my husband every night. The house becomes a disarray because I sleep until 3 or 4pm. It's hard being the wife I want to be. Troyce is a trooper though. He doesn't complain. He somewhat keeps the house picked up (we're still working on that). We make it work, for the time being. Maybe there will be something else in our future. God has a plan for us, we just have to figure out what it is and when it will happen.

The smartest decision that Troyce and I made was to wait two years before getting married. We were official on January 1st, 2015. He proposed to me on May 2nd, 2015. We were only together for four months, but we both knew that we were each other's forever. I say that waiting two years to tie the knot was the smartest decision, because it was. It gave me time to finish college. To get a job. We bought a house. We had many trials and turmoils. We had doubts. Insecurities. At times we weren't sure we were going to make it. We needed this time to find ourselves as individuals, and to find ourselves as a unity. We had to make sure we could make this marriage work. We are a little over a month into this marriage, and so far so good. Yes, we have spats. He irritates me 99.99% of the time, but I couldn't imagine it any other way. So for those of you who are wanting to get married, don't rush it. Enjoy the time you two have together and when you are ready, you'll know.

My sister and I haven't always been the closest. I'll be quick to admit I wasn't looking forward to her arrival and I was jealous of her for many years of our lives. We've fought. We've loved. Over the years, we've grown closer. I knew from day one that she would be my maid of honor in my wedding, and she was. I just didn't think it would be this hard being away from her. When Troyce and I got to Branson, Adrianna texted me and she literally made me cry in Walmart. She reminded me why we were so close. She can't come down the hall and talk to me whenever she wants. I'm not physically there when she needs to talk. She can't hear the shower running when I get home from work in the mornings letting her know I made it home safe. I have since managed in keeping our relationship solid. I text her every morning when I get home from work to let her know I made it safely. She knows she can call me or text me at all hours of the night and I'm there. Sh...

"Suddenly Jesus met them. 'Greetings,' he said. They came to him, clasped his feet and worshiped him." Matthew 28:9 Jesus made his appearances around many different places. This is what brings power to the resurrection. It is the appearance that brings God and power to the resurrection. We need to feel the presence of God in our hearts. He showed Himself to us everyday. We don't give Jesus the credit He deserves. Don't see with your eyes, see with your soul and your heart. Every person is a gift from God. They are considered a God appearance. Jesus didn't just raise Himself from the dead, He showed Himself. God, please forgive us when we take you, Christianity, and the church for granted. YOU MUST HAVE FAITHFULNESS!

"Unless the Lord builds the house, its builders labor in vain. Unless the Lord watches over the city, the watchmen stand guard in vain." Psalm 127:1 Where is the learning of God? It is your responsibility to teach your children about God. Teach them how to pray, and pray with them. Read the word together. Go to church. It takes work and devotion. Be God's tool, and teach other's to be His tool as well. This is what our world needs. The corruption must stop. The brutality and hatred must stop. We must put God first. He puts us first, and now it is our turn to return the favor.

Being a dispatcher and being a newly wed is not easy, especially having to flip back and forth from days to nights. He comes home from work, I go to work. I come home from work, he goes to work. It makes you wonder if there's more to life. What do you do when you absolutely love the field you're in and what you do, but you aren't sure if it works for your family. How are you supposed to be a caretaker and a homemaker when you aren't home? These are the questions that have travelled across my mind the past couple of weeks. I wonder what else could be out there for me. What do I want to do with my life? I have a degree. I have dreams. Why is this not easy? If I had known then what I know now, I wouldn't have gotten such a useless degree. I would have done something practical, and not what I love.

My cousin needs help fulfilling his dream of being part of a Drum Core. Any help that you can give him would be greatly appreciated! Here is the link to his gofundme account. www.gofundme.com/dv2h3hgz